Waiting in Dodge

In Dodge, waiting for choir to start. I wonder if Clover is pissed about my email, or more worried. Got a bracelet at Macy's today. I have been feeling so dizzy the past few days... (and the light is bubbling off the glaring tiled floor) and I wonder if it has anything to do with Saturday. I have been feeling especially down about everything lately, but I don't want to let B see it at all. The other day when I got in a bad mood, he looked like he was going to cry and he said that he was really scared... But i feel horrible and loathsome and like I just want to strip and slice away all of me... burn myself into a melted hole in these tiles. (And maybe no longer be dizzy, disconnected and floating (with a tickle behind my neck.))