Indifferent Sex

So... the end of the month and exactly two months after this began with AIR7, we're still having sex... I guess it's not really that big a deal... I was the one who said it was okay because somehow it just seemed logical, despite how illogical this all is... But God, it was last night and this morning and it's 2:00 AM right now and I still ache. I bled too...

There's not really much more to say about it... I am supposed to be studying like crazy for my history midterm, but I can't...

I think I'm just going to go to sleep now so that I can wake up at 7:00 and study...

I wonder if this has changed me... I know that I wanted it and I don't regret it, bu If eel broken in a way... And as if there's less meaning the deeper I dig. I didn't end up going out with E-the-r on Saturday by the way...

I don't know about all this, though... I just want to be loved. I just want to be loved.