Feeling Betrayed

So, at least home is back... I ran away from school (for once!) on Thursday night. But, God! Do I feel betrayed by VJ! Even though I know that she doesn't know or understand anything that is going on, I at least expected her to have the faith in me that whatever she doesn't understand is just that... But for her to accuse me of faking problems for attention!

Maybe I am not "betrayed"... Maybe I never had her to begin with... But she had me!

And AIR7... Well, God, that's a whole other story. I really don't know what to think about him... Unless I just think what I thought six months ago... Fun without Faith.

I'm sitting outside Dodge right now (before "Modern") and my fingers are fucking frozen. It snowed madly last night when I came back from AIR7's and God, was it beautiful!

I really don't want to sign for this trip tomorrow and I wonder if I'm going to. Neither of them seemed so dead set on it, but they both seem to want to get it over with.

My mom thinks I should go to Law School and I'm starting to think that she's right-- that I'm great at arguing and remembering fact by fact, detail by detail what I need to in order to pull someone else apart. I just never thought about getting paid for it!