Mama Said...

Lost and then found...

Today unsettled all day and then amazingly attacked by my mom, as if I were Jewel. I feel like it's so unfair. But what if she's right? She acknowledged that I am living up to my responsibilities, but not to my potential. As if she's only going to help me out if I do certain things. With "health" as a priority. But what about room for my own choices? To figure out who I want to be as a person?

What about happiness?

What if that's not the same as living to one's potential? Shouldn't I be able to choose?

I feel like this is something I'd want to talk to Narc about because he would understand where she's coming from in terms of ambition and potential and maybe put it to me differently. I miss him. Missing something I never had. I just hate that my mom did this to me. It's so unfair when I'm only doing my best.