Losing It

I can't believe what Narc said to me last night... that I have a tremendous heart and that someone will want it, just not him. And that I'm just not healthy and it's why he doesn't want to associate with me.

And I'm sick of drinking and I want to change. I just don't want this anymore. And I'm so angry about what happened last night at Cheers and the way it played out. I don't ever want to go back there. I don't even want to go back on New Year's. I'm going to write him a letter...

Dear PumpedUp,

I don't want to dwell on the specifics of the situation, but I still feel very uncomfortable and since it's your bar, I think you should know why.

Whether or not, that guy, RedFacedLawyer, was any kind of threat, or just kidding around, there was absolutely no reason for him to be physical with me and grab my arms. Once he did, I asked him several times to let me go and there is absolutely no excuse for him to have not done so. The reasons why I'm particularly uncomfortable having someone grab me in a forceful way shouldn't matter at all. Whether or not I over-reacted, it should never have gotten to that point to begin with. I came back to the bar to apologize and in retrospect, I don't think I owed anyone an apology. He should have apologized to me.

In the future, I would advise you to be alerted when anyone says something like "get your hands off me" repeatedly. If he had complied, or if you had asked him to leave me alone, the situation wouldn't have taken the turn that it did. I feel very uncomfortable with what happened and even more uncomfortable that I had to apologize for and explain my reaction. I don't owe anyone an explanation for why I don't want to be touched like that.

You know how much I love Cheers and you guys have always been good to me, so I owe it to you to tell you this so you can avoid any similar problems in the future.

Merry Christmas.

All the best,
Hyde