B: On Prostitutes

Sometimes I really hate him. I can't believe this whole fucking conversation about prostitution. I shouldn't let him sleep here anymore... a man so against my principles! I mean, it's so dehumanizing to everyone involved and so pathetic on part of the person buying... I would lose all respect for him if I knew he even considered such a thing! It's so fucking pathetic. I need to get out of this situation... to get out of this world in which a guy thinks he can buy the realness of sex. He doesn't know what sex it. She has side-railed me for long enough.

It annoys me that he's even sleeping out there in the living room after we had this conversation.

I don't know... this is stupid. Maybe I should kill myself.

(See what happens when you're drunk?!?)

And do I think that Buke is charming when he says it? So what? I can't believe B would think that way. It really makes me hate him.

But how can I hate someone I love?

Well, this time I just do...