AIR7 Declares His Love

Oh God, the weirdest things have been happening! Yesterday I spent the whole day with AIR7. We went to the mall where I exchanged the watch that BigSis got me (it broke) and he got Brandi a Christmas present (a silver bracelet) and then we went to "Play it Again Sports" where he bought a golf club. Then we went to the bank and then drove to the city. I dropped him off at Haven and then went to my appointment with Dr. G. After that, I went back and cleaned my room for three hours and then AIR7 and I met to go out.

First we went to the Heights for dinner and then I walked him through the reenactment of "the arrest" night. Then we headed down to Cafe Wha. It was really crowded there, though, and I had to pea, so we went to a nearby bar called Off the Wagon. We were there until about 2:30 AM (on screwdrivers and Long Island iced teas).

Anyway, it gets king of blurry from here on in. We took a cab back and somehow it was worked out that AIR7 was coming back to my place. I think we were "comfortable" in the cab. Anyway, when he came up we fooled around for four hours straight and I gave him a blow job. It was so weird. He told me that he has been really, really in love with me for at least two months now, but that he couldn't say it. He said that he had dreamed so many times about being with me because he really loves me.

God, I don't know what to think... He asked me if I love him in that way too and I didn't really answer. I don't really want to think about it... He asked me if he kissed me in the morning if I would kiss back, and he regretted that I was drunk.

Anyway, we slept from 8:00 AM to 11:00 AM and then fooled around for another hour (sober by now).

I don't know what I'm doing or what I'm getting myself into. We spent the rest of the day together and it was very "holding-hands"-ey. And we saw The Prince of Egypt, leaning with hands the whole time. When I finally drove him home, he gave me a kiss goodnight and then dashed out of the car.

I wonder if ti's really me, or if he just likes the idea of being the one who can make me happy. I"m really not sure what I think of any of it.

Oh well... I'm exhausted now, so I'll go to sleep.

Ironic life...