Suicide Wish

Oh God, I lost you for over a week and chewed my nails off because of it... Things have gotten so much worse in my head, but so much better on the outside... Anyway, I am on the phone with VJ right now and super distracted...

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So, in Carmine's later, and all that floats through is him, him HIM. And I know that this is a transfer and I fear the break to come...

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I want to kill myself NOW!!!!!! In front of Scheisser and Adam. I want to kill myself... to kill myself... I want to be

**(my drunken handwriting became illegible at this point and I can't read it).

Let me perish please. PLEASE. Where is my what turned

**(and again, the writing is illegible from here to the end)