A Crush

Oh God, Oh God, Oh God, Oh God, I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love and once again it is this sweet, sweet pain that feels like it never left and all I see is him and all I think is him and this wrenching nausea brings such a smile that I'm not sure whether to laugh or cry. But I know how impossible this whole thing is and I wonder (wistfully) why it wasn't met to begin with. It could have been...

Oh God, this is too much. I don't want it, but I'm floating on the blessing.