A New Resolve

I am thinking about tearing out and burning all of the pages in here where I've said more than I should have. (The truth will set you free.)

Anyway, I think (hope?) :( that I have reached a new threshold... one in which the madness stops and I, drained, punch it back into myself without a sign or a sigh if I can help it...

And I wonder if it's a blessing or a curse that I can never be Marilyn Manson. Ha ha... Well, I guess it really doesn't matter. I'm not sure that I would want to.

But as I feel my youth slipping away, all beauty wasted, swallowing torrents... as I must teach myself to eat the filth of it all, I swallow, swallow, swallow heard until I can stand it no more.