My First Meistersinger

Went to see Die Meistersinger today with B. I was surprised at how much I ;loved it-- the music was miraculous! And how I survived six hours of Wagner...

But now it is evening and I am Pertutti and must remind myself to hold on hold on hold on! When I want to sink so badly it takes every quaking bone in my body not to let my bleeding and broken fingernails claw their way into space at 9.8 m/s and I am dizzy and want to go out tonight so badly, but no one is around and I pray for the strength not to hurt myself again even though (oh God!) I want to. Anyway, I will pause for bread (Happy Passover!)

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Anyway, did that a strange wind of a year ago stirs besides me in blond and I am ashamed of my own mind-- that I can be so ludicrous.

Food here-- must go.