I Won't Apologize

In St. Bart's with B. Just got here a few minutes late and he greeted me by yelling at me, even though it was just a few minutes late and even though I left him a message. I hate feeling like nothing that I do is good enough. I'm sick of apologizing for who I am. That's just not enough for me anymore. I don't ever want to apologize for who I am again. I don't have to please anyone beyond what I know to be my best. I hate Narc and I hate everyone who's ever made me feel like I have to change myself and apologize for who I am. I won't do it.