The Forced Promise

Okay, I am writing this here because AIR7 asked me to.. I must never, ever cut myself. Unless I go through this entire list first! People to call:

1.) Dr. G.
2.) BigSis
3.) GoldenFinch
4.) AIR7
5.) B
6.) KSing
7.) PhyicsGuy
8.) NiS
9.) Anxious
10.) Susanna
11.) My mom
12.) A help line
13.) Go to St Luke's Hospital physically

Anyway, I have to do this for AIR7. He says that he loves me and that it hurts him to think of when I harm myself.

It's weird how I write in my journal less and less... But it's because I'm sort of happy. I am still really scared because there's so much I'm unsure of with him. I think I lveo him... but at hte same time, he always controls circumstances and that scares me. It's like he knows what he wants and that's what's good for him and that's all that he cares about. Anyway... I am watchign my soaps, so I will write more later...