Remnants of an Autobiography

1. Keep the Faith speech-- alone/split
2. Crazy (Patsy Cline)-- madness
3. Driving out West-- trapped on the road of life
4. Duchamps- how he settled the problem and why I can't handle it that way
5. Life without Cadence-- waiting
6. Becoming a statue-- painting with a purpose, history, escape
7. My name etched in stone
8. Death in parentheses- alone, purpose
9. Eric Clapton- tears in heaven, religion, dad
10.Why opera- escape, time, history, madness
11. Russia- escape, time, history
12. Grandma Lily and life on the lower east side
13. Corner of the Sky- piece of sky and paradox
14. Religion- closes me from the past
15. Gethsemane- escape from the road of life
16. Average vs. extraordinary- happiness, purpose.
17. Superiority/Inferiority complex
18. Why I hate the mall- the world is rotting, alone
19. Why I hate sports
20. Why I hate Disney- the world is rotting
21. Why I hate romantic comedy- alone
22. "Art is calling for me"- ambition
23. "All Flesh is Grass"- religion
24. Blaze of Glory- ambition/trapped on road of life.
25. Sola, Perduta, Abandonata- alone
26. Alyssa Milano and Teen Spirit- alone
27. Nirvana and the Spice Girls- alone
28. HISTORY
29. Stars and their meaning- religion
30. Not even a brick in the wall. alone
31. Why I'm addicted to shopping
32. Catherine di Medici
33. WWI as the end of the world
34. Blake G. and perception
35. Proof of my thought
36. The most sane/ the most
37. How to be Mozart and insane Bogart
38. Don't want to shut my eyes (Kant- mirror)
39. Throw Mama from the train (of life)
40. Slavery and Freedom
41. On our own or in it together
42. Kokoshka- -embody limbo
43. Harfenspieler
44. Insight on Vampires
45. The barbie down the stairwell
46. Why I don't want to be a blood doner
47. Why the obsession with death and the gothic?

Summer of projects unfinished-- hapr, sweing, italian, etc.
Longig to skip the process-- being able to do without the learning.

Catherine de Medici-- long forgotten?
WWI as the end of the world
Nicole and the Titanic
Why I hate Disney
Why I hate sports
Why I hate romantic comedy

Scared of my thoughts-- why? who cares?

Having to most (sane and insane together)
Scared of Mozart (Amadeus)
Cool as Bogart
Don't want to shut my eyes on the day

The Seavers and "Saved by the Bell"
You can't be Mike and Carol
Mike wa sfree to be off the path because he couldn't be on it. Carol was stuck.

VC Andrews- Heaven and Audrina-- out of time, out of reality. Didn't belong in her world and it was obvious. But everyone loved her for it.

Longing to be carved in stone. Hamlet and Ophelia.

Jamie Burn's ice blue dress. Don Quixote and Sancho wrapped in one. The apocalypse and the environment.

The fabulous story of Henry Sugar.

The moth and the flame

Slavery and Freedom-- born together in the US. My own freedom depends on slavery. Work to make money to give it up. The Prarie Fire.

Oskar Kokoshka

ANECDOTES

Queens vs. Bellmore
Politics in High School
Losing Birdie/ Losing BigSis
Infinite new wardrobes
Jail loves me and goats
Dreaming about the MS dance (flipping in air)
Straight A+ in 7th grade
Horseback Riding
Sweet Sixteens and why I hate to dance
The Wedding that will never happen
Puerto Rico
Trick or treating
Elizabeth and Pable
Rick in the Cornfields
Why didn't I cry when I found out?
Lies, lies, lies
Playing dr. with Katie
Hiding in my room and passing notes
Annie
Cleopatra and Anthony
Superiority/Inferiority complex
Losing as Board Rep