Jekyll vs. Hyde

On the LIRR, coming back from voice with yet another dry throat and burned eyes and packed nose... I lost myself! I lost myself and I don't' now which one I am anymore... I don't know which one I am...

I am so disoriented always lately. And I wonder what it must look like (apreçu) to their eyes when I get like that... Headache, always, again now...

Anyway, thinking too hard now... I think I'll just gaze (longingly?) out the window.